First off I apologize to my avid readers for my disappearance, it’s been far too much in far too little time to write about.  The last few months, I’ve found myself in a series of unfortunate events.  I mean know those days you just don’t want to get up? I felt that.  I’ve had more decisions since my last writings than in my entire life, which was shocking to me as I already seemed to have added responsibilities before!   I have seen in the few months the harsh realities of the world and you can tell if you listen long enough even my humor has gotten darker.   I have some of the worst things I’ve ever experienced all at once.  Post graduate, no job, sleeping on a family friends couch for a month…yep I did.  Nicest people you could ever meet but this guy had sleepless nights worried, second guessed every decision I ever made, the works.  It has been one of those points where even when people gives you advice it feels like getting kicked in the face.  Truly, it was nerve racking.  It gave me true realizations not just about the world around me but about myself.  I have had to make the hardest decisions in my life.  Decisions I didn’t think I could make 10 years ago.  I’ve had to suffer and be broken down completely,but it is alright.  We fall to pick ourselves up…It is in the darkest moments that we find our light, we forget all distractions, all thoughts, and only feel what is calling to us.  I have been able to completely be destroyed, fall victim to my vices and flaws the parts that make me human.  Now with eyes looking forward I step out to build it back up higher and better than the last time.  So YOU will win that battle! YOU will achieve that goal! Do not be discouraged, let the pain humble you and help you to grow.  You can then grow to be the person you were meant to be and return better than ever.